Saturday, November 21, 2009

I need advice

I have ordered my first batch of hormones, low dosage, for experimental reasons. Shrink approved.

Want to see how it affects my emotional center.

For all you transitioning peeps:

I think I have to do's like a crawling vine over my brain. All I can think about. Not always positive. I feel like it will consume me.

Why is self acceptance so hard? I feel like my Neurotransmitters are fucking with my heads


Just need some feedback


  1. I have no advice to give you Cassidy, as I am not currently on hormones. But I do recall a time in my early 40's when I had a hormone imbalance, where my T levels plummeted and my E levels shot way up. Enough to develop small female breasts. I loved the way it made me feel, even though it put me on an emotional roller coaster that I couldn't control. I had also always been completely hetero sexual, and retained my attraction primarily to women, but strangely, I began to also find my self attracted occasionally to very handsome men. I would admire their clean sophisticated look, and find myself fantasizing about being their wife.

    God love you sweetie! I wish I was you right now! I miss it!

    Melissa XX

  2. I've never succumbed to the desire, but it beckons frequently. I'll be very interested to hear how it goes. Rock on, girlfriend!

  3. I wish you luck in your experiment. I think they will affect you, but how, I cannot say. Personally, I'm not tempted, but it may be just what you need. Good luck with it!

  4. Good luck. Hopefully it will all go well eventually