I have ordered my first batch of hormones, low dosage, for experimental reasons. Shrink approved.
Want to see how it affects my emotional center.
For all you transitioning peeps:
I think I have to do it...it's like a crawling vine over my brain. All I can think about. Not always positive. I feel like it will consume me.
Why is self acceptance so hard? I feel like my Neurotransmitters are fucking with my heads
Relate?
Just need some feedback
I have no advice to give you Cassidy, as I am not currently on hormones. But I do recall a time in my early 40's when I had a hormone imbalance, where my T levels plummeted and my E levels shot way up. Enough to develop small female breasts. I loved the way it made me feel, even though it put me on an emotional roller coaster that I couldn't control. I had also always been completely hetero sexual, and retained my attraction primarily to women, but strangely, I began to also find my self attracted occasionally to very handsome men. I would admire their clean sophisticated look, and find myself fantasizing about being their wife.
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I've never succumbed to the desire, but it beckons frequently. I'll be very interested to hear how it goes. Rock on, girlfriend!
ReplyDeleteI wish you luck in your experiment. I think they will affect you, but how, I cannot say. Personally, I'm not tempted, but it may be just what you need. Good luck with it!
ReplyDeleteGood luck. Hopefully it will all go well eventually
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